So tired, yet I can't get myself to sleep.

Account on one of my gaming thingies got hacked awhile ago. It's my first hacking incident, and honestly, since I've not been there for at least a year, I don't care about the virtual items I've lost. I only care that my brother and I use repetitive usernames/passes for the accounts on any game we play, and that is worrying me.

I hate it. I want to write something. Draw someone. But it's never up to par with my expectations. I expected it a whole lot better. But miracles don't happen with someone who does not practice. My violin is breaking, I can tell from the sobs that reach my ears every time I play it.

Why do I come to Blogger for solace?

I don't know. Maybe because the likelihood of someone coming over here to read it is extremely unlikely? I get to rant all I like, on paper/screen. It makes me feel happier. Somehow.



I don't want to die early. I really don't want to. There's so many things I want to try with her, haha... My dearest Kinokuniya raid partner. Been friends for so long, huh? We've even talked about living together in the future, me and my fantasy of a bigass fountain. xD !

I don't want to die. I will defy it as long as I can, as long as I can hold... But I'm scared, and so afraid.

Ari's quizzes are interesting to read at night...

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How mentally unstable are you?

[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.' [Only on ragemodes?]
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door. [All the time.]
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle. [By accident, and almost lost my arm on one occasion.]
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks. [Sometimes, thinking is way faster than talking.]
[x] You have run into a tree/bush. [All the time...]
[ ] You have been called a blond. [I'd punch anyone who'd dare.]
TOTAL: 5

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow. [No srs.]
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody [... Are you freaking serious?]
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen. [adfkjhwerndsd. IT TAKES SKILL TO TRIP ON FLAT SURFACES, KAYYY.]
[x] You have choked on your own spit. [...]
TOTAL: 9

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire. [This is bad.]
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose. [................]
[x] You have caught yourself drooling. [... When I wake up. >:]
TOTAL: 12

[x] You have fallen asleep in class. [All the time. I bet I will tomorrow, too.]
[x] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking. [Assessing information... Re-assessing... Re-assessing.]
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about. [Umm... Yeah! This-- No wait, this belongs somewhere else...]
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'
TOTAL: 15

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math. [lkjlkmawelrkmsdas...]
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important. [Sleeping. Angsting doesn't count.]
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it. [My pants. I swear it looks the same, but it's houseclothes, soo...]
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc. [Where the *#$& is my housekey?!... Oh. It's... On the table...]
TOTAL: 19

[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't. [Fuck that shit, seriously. I should have died over a hundred times if I did.]
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused. [Reflex. Nothing more... >:]
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before. [Zzzzz... zomgbbqWAAAAAAAH!!]
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. [There're clouds up mine. ^^]
[x] The word "um" is used frequently. [Um... What was I about to say?]
[ ] You don't know what "um" means.
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot. ["What?!" is usually said with frustration and anger, but I guess it counts... "Huh", not so much.]
[x] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin. [YesIam.]
TOTAL: 25

Take your total,
Multiply by 4,


Put the title as : I'm 100% mentally unstable.

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Oh fuck. I didn't need a calculator after all.

~Rebecca, Altariel