So tired, yet I can't get myself to sleep.

Account on one of my gaming thingies got hacked awhile ago. It's my first hacking incident, and honestly, since I've not been there for at least a year, I don't care about the virtual items I've lost. I only care that my brother and I use repetitive usernames/passes for the accounts on any game we play, and that is worrying me.

I hate it. I want to write something. Draw someone. But it's never up to par with my expectations. I expected it a whole lot better. But miracles don't happen with someone who does not practice. My violin is breaking, I can tell from the sobs that reach my ears every time I play it.

Why do I come to Blogger for solace?

I don't know. Maybe because the likelihood of someone coming over here to read it is extremely unlikely? I get to rant all I like, on paper/screen. It makes me feel happier. Somehow.



I don't want to die early. I really don't want to. There's so many things I want to try with her, haha... My dearest Kinokuniya raid partner. Been friends for so long, huh? We've even talked about living together in the future, me and my fantasy of a bigass fountain. xD !

I don't want to die. I will defy it as long as I can, as long as I can hold... But I'm scared, and so afraid.

Ari's quizzes are interesting to read at night...

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How mentally unstable are you?

[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.' [Only on ragemodes?]
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door. [All the time.]
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle. [By accident, and almost lost my arm on one occasion.]
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks. [Sometimes, thinking is way faster than talking.]
[x] You have run into a tree/bush. [All the time...]
[ ] You have been called a blond. [I'd punch anyone who'd dare.]
TOTAL: 5

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow. [No srs.]
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody [... Are you freaking serious?]
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen. [adfkjhwerndsd. IT TAKES SKILL TO TRIP ON FLAT SURFACES, KAYYY.]
[x] You have choked on your own spit. [...]
TOTAL: 9

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire. [This is bad.]
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose. [................]
[x] You have caught yourself drooling. [... When I wake up. >:]
TOTAL: 12

[x] You have fallen asleep in class. [All the time. I bet I will tomorrow, too.]
[x] Sometimes you just can't stop thinking. [Assessing information... Re-assessing... Re-assessing.]
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about. [Umm... Yeah! This-- No wait, this belongs somewhere else...]
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'
TOTAL: 15

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math. [lkjlkmawelrkmsdas...]
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important. [Sleeping. Angsting doesn't count.]
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it. [My pants. I swear it looks the same, but it's houseclothes, soo...]
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time. e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc. [Where the *#$& is my housekey?!... Oh. It's... On the table...]
TOTAL: 19

[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't. [Fuck that shit, seriously. I should have died over a hundred times if I did.]
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused. [Reflex. Nothing more... >:]
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before. [Zzzzz... zomgbbqWAAAAAAAH!!]
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. [There're clouds up mine. ^^]
[x] The word "um" is used frequently. [Um... What was I about to say?]
[ ] You don't know what "um" means.
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot. ["What?!" is usually said with frustration and anger, but I guess it counts... "Huh", not so much.]
[x] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin. [YesIam.]
TOTAL: 25

Take your total,
Multiply by 4,


Put the title as : I'm 100% mentally unstable.

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Oh fuck. I didn't need a calculator after all.

~Rebecca, Altariel

Sis told me to post this.

Bye.

COPYPASTA FROM EDEN'S BLOGGG.

Dated: Friday, October 09, 2009. [What, you expected 2010? Or 2012?!]
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Rules of the game: Once you are tagged, you MUST DO this quiz and tag 16 friends, including the person who tagged you. Copy and paste everything, do it and repost the title with whatever rank you were given. Ranks are given at the bottom of this note. If you have done something in this school which is indicated by the sentence, mark the [ ] on the left side of the thing you have done with a X. Let the game begin.
Level 1:
[X] Sleep in class. [I don't even try counting anymore.]
[X] Talked in class. [SAINT SEA HATT!!]
[X] Not seating at your own place in class.
[X] Scolded by a teacher.
[X] Litter the classroom.
[X] Did not do your homework at least 15 times.
[X] Submitted your homework late at least 10 times.
[X] Came late for school at least 10 times. [The security guard knows me. O_O]
[ ] Brought/wore home clothes without school's permission.
[X] Brought/wore jewellery to school.
[X] Did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time. [Blame handphones, friends, doodlebooks and general idiotic guys in the class room.]
[X] Cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" and "diam cet lar" to the teacher. [...]
[X] Plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school.
[X] Copied other people's homework in desperation.
[X] Played a trick on your classmates/teacher.
Total so far: 14

Level 2:
[X] Sent for detention class. [For being violent.]
[X] Late in class.
[X] Not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly.
[X] Shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time. [HAHAHA.]
[X] Scolding vulgarities in class.
[ ] Spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school.
[X] Used a school facility without school's permission.
[X] Played soccer/basketball or any other sports in classroom.
[X] Singing loudly during lesson.
[X] Walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time.
[X] Did not greet the teacher properly
[X] Went to the toilet during lesson time without permission. [CHER! I HAAVE TO GO!!!]
[X] Played a trick on the teacher during April fools.
[X] Used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump.
[X] Made yourself a nuisance to the teacher.
Total so far: 28 [... This isn't looking too well for me, isn't it?]

Level 3:
[X] Was asked to stay back after school/ break time.
[X] Made a fool out of morning assembly. [... Primary Two. Don't ask. I died of embarrassment.]
[X] Wasted the school's toilet paper. [...]
[ ] Sabotaged someone.
[X] Irritated someone. [Always, always.]
Total so far: 32

Level 4:
[X] Forged your parent's signature.
[X] Forged a classmate's signature. [This is mostly for fun. I never actually used it.]
[ ] Forged a teacher's signature.
[ ] Made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them.
[X] Flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the fourth storey. [Until it took a 180-degree turn into the radiator, yes.]
Total so far: 35

Level 5:
[X] Fiddling with your handphone during lesson time. [Who doesn't?!]
[X] Played with your PSP in school.
[X] Using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission.
[X] Listened to an MP3 player in school.
[ ] Messed with the teacher's pigeon hole. [Oh. Primary school days... XD]
Total so far: 39

Level 6:
[X] Vandalising with school property. [Liquid paper and table.]
[ ] Tried to defame your school in public.
[ ] Used the internet to scold teachers.
[X] Fought with someone in school. [Believe it.]
[ ] Shoplifted in school.
Total so far: 41

Level 7:
[X] Cheated in a class test. [FFA in my class...]
[ ] Cheated in a school examination.
[ ] Cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination.
[X] Lied to your teacher.
[X] Played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons. [Perks of being an Admin. Student. Best part the teacher didn't tell on me.]
Total so far: 44

Level 8:
[ ] Took drugs in school
[ ] Smoked in school.
[X] Set fire to something in the school. [I'm a pyromaniac...]
[X] Locked the teacher out of the classroom. [Secondary school. Intentional or not. My lock has problems.]
[ ] Played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance.
Total so far: 46

Level 9:
[ ] Refused to pay school fees.
[ ] Cheated the school money.
[ ] Stole things which belonged to the school.
[ ] Bullied someone in school.
[ ] Pranked called your school.
Total so far: 46

Level :10
[X] Raised your voice/shouted against a student leader. [My colleagues.]
[X] Raised your voice/shouted against a teacher. [OBJECTION!]
[X] Raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress. [CHALLENGE AUTHORITY!]
[ ] Raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal.
[X] Raised your voice/shouted against your principal. [WHAT KIND OF BS ARE YOU SPOUTING?!]
Total so far: 50 [I do not lie about this section. The only reason it never happened for my VP is probably because I don't see her.]

Level :11
[X] Brought weapons to the school. [Gigantic scissors... Penknife? Carving set?]
[ ] Brought real firearms to the school. [Do it Sergeant Sagara style!]
[ ] Brought a real bomb to the school.
[ ] Fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kill.
[ ] Dressed up as a terrorist to school.
Grand total : 51 [Wow.]

If you are between 0-15 -------------{I am a good student}
If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}
If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}
If you are between 31-40------------{I am a bad student}
f you are between 41-50------------{I am a very bad student}
If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}
If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}
If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre

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So sue me. I don't take things lying down. Part TEW! Numero Dos~
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001. Real Name: *points to profile*
002. Nickname(s): "Ghost" , "The beast" ...
003. Age: Know if you do. Shut up about asking if you don't.
004. Horoscope: Aquarius
005. Gender: Female
006. Elementary: Is this Kindergarden?
007. Primary school: Meridian Primary...
008. Secondary school: HSCS.
009. College: Probably heading for a Poly. In either case, I don't have one yet.
010. Hair colour: Black, but I'm told it's brown.
011. Hair length: Waist-length.
012. Loud or Quiet: Quiet mostly. But I can be very, very noisy.
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.
014: Phone or camera: Phone. I dislike photos...
015. Health Freak: No? I probably have a lot of diseases I refuse to get treated for...
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink-ed once. Didn't like it.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes..
018. Eat or Drink: Drink?
019. Piercings: Nada.
020. Tattoos: ... Are you assessing if I'm a terrorist or something?
021. Social or Anti-social: Anti-social.
022. Righty or lefty: Righty~
023. First piercing: Don't have one~
024. First relationship: What gives you the right to know?
025. First Best Friend: Eden or Leone take the closest ties.
026. First Award: Can't remember. Kindie counts?
027. First Kiss: ...?
028. First Pet: Royale, the best dog in the world.
029. First Big Vacation: Genting...?
030. First Love at first sight: Go shoot yourself.
031. First Big Birthday: Probably not that I remember. My birthdays are pretty tame.
032. First Surgery: When I was younger. Don't remember.
033. Unique or Common: Unique
034. Orange or Apple juice: OJ, BISHES!!!!!
035. Rock or Rap: Rap.
036. Country or Screamo: Country~
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys. Don't know NSYNC.
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: Bimbo 1 or Bimbo 2? Let me see...
039. Night or Day: Night. Though I don't like going out much.
040. Sun or Moon: Moonlight~
041. TV or Internet: Intranatz.!
042. Playstation or XboX: Tough choice. My life revolved on the PS1, but there would be no Halo without Xbox...
043. Kiss or hug: Huggles!
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle.
045. Spider or bee: GRAB THE NEWSPAPER!!
046. Fall or spring: Fall~ I'm yet to see one though.
047. limewire or iTunes: iTunes. Influenced by sibling.
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer. Baseball always turned out to be Rugbys anyway.
049. Eating: Dango.
050. Drinking: Mountain Dew.
051. Excitement level: Close to Nil.
052. I'm about to: Curse at you for making this so long.
053. Listening to: Joint - Mami Kawada
054. Plan for today: Play AION, talk to my friends, finish my RP posts, and this?
055. Waiting for: Time to sleep.
056. Energy Level: Waking state.
057. Thinking of someone: One. If she's still drunk.
058. Want kids: Why not get laid instead? Go on, I'm not stopping you.
059. Want to get married: Probably not?
060. When: *cracks knuckles*
061. How many kids: ...
062. Any name on the mind: Arietta? I'm talking to her now.
063. Love or Money : Either one is good.
064. Acting or Singing : Acting.
065. Mellow future or wild: *shrug*
066. Something you would never try: Bianca's Poison Cooking. [KHR Ref.]
067. Which is the better in the guy/girl you like(in the future): Huh...? English fail?
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes. They're pretty, most of the time.
069. Romantic or Funny: Funny.
070. Shorter or Taller: Tall.
071. Protective or Caring: Too caring and you piss me off. Over-protective and you piss me off too. ALL THINGS IN MODERATION, DALAI LAMA.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneous!! .
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: How do you even check?
074. Sensitive or Loud: Terrorist check-up alert. BEEP BEEP!
075. Hook-up or Relationship: Rururururu~
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: Trouble maker! You've got one life, live it!
077. Muscular or normal: Normal?
078. Kissed a stranger: Suck a dick. >>;
079. Broken a bone: Yes,
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Lost my contacts.
081. Ran away from home: Nope, as now.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Knife.
083. Killed somebody: You called a Hitman, sir?
084. Broken someone's heart: Not for me to decide.
085. Had your heart broken: Hmm.
086. Been arrested: No.
087. Cried when someone died: Yes.
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Besttt friend?
089. Do you believe in yourself: Depends on situation.
090. Miracles: Yes. But don't hold your breath for one.
091. Love at first sight: Crap.
092. Heaven: Hell sounds more realistic.
093. When do you want to die: In my 58+s. That's when the backaches, wrinkles, shit happens.
094. Tooth Fairy: ... No?
095. Kiss on the first date: No date. o.o
096. Angels: Probably.
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Mmhm.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now: No, not really.
099. How do you feel now : Bored-er than I started.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people:

^--- Too much effort, and too lazy.

I'm sleeeeepy...

~Riviera, Altariel

[s]OKAY LA, WA PIANG EH.[/s]

(?! Scripting didn't work?!)

Okay. Since a lot of people are asking me to update, and I'm bored, plus, I have no idea what to do, I'll go and catch up on the quizzes that Eden has been bombarding me with...

... Hey, you said update. You never indicated with WHAT KIND OF CONTENT. O_O

And so the madness will revive itself once again.

May be planning a blog revamp in the near future.

~Riviera, Altariel

[s]OKAY LA, WA PIANG EH.[/s]

Okay. Since a lot of people are asking me to update, and I'm bored, plus, I have no idea what to do, I'll go and catch up on the quizzes that Eden has been bombarding me with...

... Hey, you said update. You never indicated with WHAT KIND OF CONTENT. O_O

And so the madness will revive itself once again.

May be planning a blog revamp in the near future.

~Riviera, Altariel

Off to slit wrists because the fucking PSP just doesn't work whenever I need it most.

Fuck.

I got stitches again...

For a sick reason it feels okay, [which it shouldn't, but screw dat...]

Arr...